Me Weird???

Alisha taged me for this MEME, and since I have never done a MEME I thought I would give it a go!!

I will list 5 weird things about me and then tag five other people to do the same. Here goes!

1. Remember the movie When Harry Met Sally? Sally liked to order things "on the side" me too. I don't think I am as bad as her, but I don't like a lot of things, and I like a certain amounts of things that I do like. So for me, please bring it on the side!

2. I go to bed very early every night. I like to be asleep by 9:30 at the latest, this does include the weekends. I will not leave somewhere just to go home and get in bed, but it is normally very apparent to everyone around that I am up past my bed time!

3. I love to watch the same movies over and over and over and over, but I don't like to reread books. I have no explanation for this.

4. I do NOT like strawberries because they feel GROSS in my mouth. I do not like their texture. This goes for tomatoes, bananas, and several other foods. I do not like yogurt because it stinks!

5. I am afraid of the dark. Mostly I am afraid of a dark bathroom, because my older siblings and cousins tortured me with a little game called "Bloody Mary" when we were younger, and the effects have yet to ware off. I also DO NOT watch scary movies. Just the kind that involve ghosts and spirits and spookiness, I do not mind action scary.

Ok so there you go, 5 weird things about me. Now here are my picks

1. Amy
2. Clare
3. Farmgirl
4. Wendy
5. Michelle

My Life In Music

Getting the ipod has taken me on a journey through my life in music, what a ride! Everytime I download a new song, I get a flash of my past, me dancing to that song, crying, singing my heart out with somebody I could not imagine living the rest of my life without!! Music has an amazing ability to link you to your past with just a few beats! Here are some of my favorite flashbacks so far!

Tracy Chapmen Give Me One Reason- Takes me back to being 17 at my sisters apartment. She had this great little two room apartment that was in a huge house house downtown. Me and my one and only military boyfriend house sat while she was out of town. It was the summer, she had no AC and a caNOpy over her bed, it was magic!!

Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers Islands in the Stream- I don't care if you are laughing! This is one of my MOST favorite songs of all times. My favorite memory to this songs takes place at a store called Alvin's island. Those of you who don't know, AI is a huge beach store, they sell all kinds of wonderful treasures like shells made into clocks, and coffee mugs with beautiful seagull paintings!! I used to work at the one on Pensacola Beach, anyway AI had a music system that they had set to the easy listening station. Islands in the Stream was a regularly played song, which was great for me and the gay guy who's name now escapes me. Anytime the song came on gay guy and I would stop what we were doing, locate each other and sing the song together. I was Dolly and he was Kenny, and folks I do mean everytime. We eventually built up a little audience!!

Soft Cell Tainted Love- This song doesn't have one clear memory just a jumble of me with my arms around various people, always a beer in one hand. Screaming, not singing " Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease, I love you though it hurts me so..........." You guys get the idea right!!

Matchbox20 Push- This is attached to me at about 23-24. Sean and I broke up for almost a year before we got back together and got married. During this year Cora and I lived in a cute little house that was only 800 sqft. I played this album a lot, along with several others. I spent hours listening and sorting out my life to this song.

These are songs that I have already downloaded, there are a million more that I still need. Look forward to stories about 311, The Beastie Boys, Snoop Dogg, and a whole bunch of other shit that I haven't remembered yet!!

p.s. those of you who know what I missing ( you know who you are!!) please remind me!!

Time for a change!

What do you guys think? I thought maybe if I changed things up, it would make me feel like my blog was new again and I would start posting more! We'll see if it works!!

Does anybody know how to work an ipod?? I got one for free, when I went to New York. The company that paid for the trip left one in our hotel room!! I was excited, but to be honest an ipod was not something that I ever would have bought for myself. So now I have this thing, it's the new video one, but I can't figure out how to use the calendar and a couple of other little features. Maybe I am just slow!!

My trip to NY was fun. We went to China Town and Little Italy. I bought an awesome knock-off Dior purse and then went and had awesome NY pizza. Sounds like a day to me!! We went to this store called Century 21, it was a mad house. There were people and clothes EVERY WHERE!!! It's like a close out store or something, but man it was hard core. I didn't last very long!!

My husband won another trip, that's right folks, another one. This time we are going to Las Vegas in March, to see a NASCAR race!!! I am looking forward to seeing what the little elves will leave in my hotel room this time!!

I Believe.

If you want to become whole, let yourself be partial.
If you want to become straight, let yourself be crooked.
If you want to become full, let yourself be empty.
If you want to be reborn, let yourself die.
If you want to be given everything, give everything up.

My little sister showed me this poem yesterday. She heard it in a Yoga class she took in Japan, and she said that it just stuck with her. This poem will be forever burned into my mind as well. So I choose to let myself die and to be reborn, hopefully every morning when I wake up I will be reborn. Life is amazing, the way it takes you to the end, when you can fell that there is nothing under your feet, and just when you think that it's all over, it brings you back. That is what I have experienced in the last week, going to the edge and living to tell the tale, and I dare say I am a better person today than I was last Monday.

I have never been a person with a strong belief in God, but I attended Church with my mom last Sunday and for the first time I felt something. A presence of a spirit greater than me, comforting me, helping me to belive in myself and my journey. It was a great feeling, one that I hope to experience again on a regular basis. It was exhilarating to relinquish control of myself and trust that I would be taken down the right path.

I have hope that my life will work out wonderfully. I have hope that my husband and I will be able to come back together and live the life that we promised each other on the beach that day.

Do People Really Change??

Does anyone have the answer to this question? My life is currently in limbo, and I can not choose a path until I decide if people really can change. If a person can change, can the person who was harmed ever really forget. I am confident in my ability to forgive, but what if everytime I look at this person I see the past. How can I live my life that way. Waiting for the next time, can I ever forget?

What in the world is this crazy person talking about? I'm sure you all are on the right path, my husband and I have separated. Me and my two girls are staying with my mom. My husband has a lot of good qualities, but he unfortunately has some bad ones as well. He has a problem controlling his emotions, anger being the emotion he most often feels! Last Monday it got out of control and we left, and have not been back. My husband has promised counseling and a complete overhauling of himself if we could just please come back. I think my husband is a good person, who has harbored some issues deep within himself his entire life. Can a counselor really bring light to an area that has been dark for an entire lifetime? I hope so, I myself am in counseling hoping for a ray of light to shine on my deep dark secret, that has caused problems in my marriage.

I am afraid and confused and happy not to be dealing with him, I don't really know what I am to be honest. I have no idea how to sort this thing out, I need a place to begin. For now the kids are safe, but not excatly happy.

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I'm Back!!

Hey everybody,
I have missed you all, but I am back now, so here's a quick overview of what's been up.

Thanksgiving was just all right. It was at my house and of course the was a bit of family drama!

New York was great!! We had a good time, and I bought a really hot Christian Dior knock off in china town!! The most disappointing thing was that the food at Tavern on the Green and Sardis was not that great, ya win some, ya lose some!! "Dirty Rotten Scoundrels" was AWESOME, I loved it. I laughed so hard, go see it if you're in New York!

I have a new family member. His name is Gerogie and he's a 10 week old Jack Russell. I'm not quite sure how I ended up with him since I don't like dogs, but I have him and I acutely really love him!! Margaux has fallen in love with him as well, but she will only call him "puppy", she refuses to call him Georgie!! Cora of course is thrilled, she has been begging for a dog for about a year.

I know not all of you have gotten books yet, but I am going to start writing the round-up. Let me know if you haven't gotten your book yet and you need help getting in touch with you're partner.