Hello, my name is Cara......
It has been awhile since my last post, I seem to be at a loss for words. When I first started this blog I had a million ideas for all the whitty post I would create. It seems that the ideas are gone, but the blog is still here, staring at me, "Cara, come on write something". And then I go and visit all my blog friends, and guess what they have all written, something beautiful and meaningful, and I can not even come up with the words to comment, to tell Alisha "WOW" you are a beautiful writer and I am so happy that the little girl in your story has found her way. Or tell Kristi that I hope her IVF is successful, and that I think she is so brave to see the smile on her grandmother's face. Where was I when Wendy wrote a beautiful post about loving your life's work, I'll tell you where, I was typing a comment and then erasing it over and over again. The words would not come, and those that did, did not satisfy me. I want to write beautiful words, and maybe I am, and I just don't trust myself enough to actually push the "post" button. This secret world of blogging is not so secret. Although I have no faces to put with the names, I have developed enough relationships, to make me feel self conscious. When we are all strangers, it is easier for me, I can be free, but now we are friends, so that freedom is slipping away. It's strange really, even backwards. I through a series of events have developed a little issue, if you haven't noticed! But you know what the say, admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery!!!
posted by cara at 6:49 AM
6 Comments:
Oh, my beautiful, wonderful, lovely CaraJane-let the words come. Let them loose, whatever way they fall. They are inside you, so much is inside your heart that would make this world a better place just for the release of it!!! Do not be afraid. If I can have a website with my real-live name as the url, you, my dear, can do ANYTHING!!! I love you.
Awww... Cara. Don't ever feel self-conscious about anything you write. It's YOUR blog after all, and nothing you write about is wrong, or not clever enough, or silly. And your comments on my blog are always so supportive and warm and caring. I don't know you in "real life," but just from your comments I can tell the type of person you are, and that says a great deal about your writing ability. When I spend too much time thinking about my post topics, I know I'm defeating the whole purpose of my blog to begin with, and I just click the Publish button. It's your space to do with whatever YOU want. Keep writing because I'm still reading!
Anonymity (?sp)is a powerful thing, isn't it CJ? But, YOU my dear, are waaaayyyy more than anonymous, you are your 100 things and then some! Bring it on- I want to hear the "ravings" of the grown up woman you have become. There is freedom in fearlessness. Love,
TheMomma
Cara, you are too full of opinions not to share them with the blogworld!
But....you are also too interesting and funny and creative and just all-around wonderful (*You know what they say about girls with curly red hair....*) to be afraid of that Publish button.
Self-conscious? That's not the Cara I know. :)
Its had to say the words, to not judge yourself before the world does. The post you are talking about. I ranted in my journal on the train and then just typed it up and put it out there (spell checked of course), but the honesty is what is so much fun to read.
This was beautiful post - and very honest.
Keep it up!
We'll wait.
Cara
I Love you too (share it :))
I love the way you don't care what anyone thinks ( I know this after that hilarious question you askem me in my first email from you LOL) You are a great writer, and have I love your little blog, keep it up girl. AND MEASURE YOUR HEAD
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