I Believe.

If you want to become whole, let yourself be partial.
If you want to become straight, let yourself be crooked.
If you want to become full, let yourself be empty.
If you want to be reborn, let yourself die.
If you want to be given everything, give everything up.

My little sister showed me this poem yesterday. She heard it in a Yoga class she took in Japan, and she said that it just stuck with her. This poem will be forever burned into my mind as well. So I choose to let myself die and to be reborn, hopefully every morning when I wake up I will be reborn. Life is amazing, the way it takes you to the end, when you can fell that there is nothing under your feet, and just when you think that it's all over, it brings you back. That is what I have experienced in the last week, going to the edge and living to tell the tale, and I dare say I am a better person today than I was last Monday.

I have never been a person with a strong belief in God, but I attended Church with my mom last Sunday and for the first time I felt something. A presence of a spirit greater than me, comforting me, helping me to belive in myself and my journey. It was a great feeling, one that I hope to experience again on a regular basis. It was exhilarating to relinquish control of myself and trust that I would be taken down the right path.

I have hope that my life will work out wonderfully. I have hope that my husband and I will be able to come back together and live the life that we promised each other on the beach that day.